The last eight years have been miserable. Constant pain, suffering and agony. Days ceasing due to physical pain that causes me to be doubled over. Constantly wishing for an end to it all, even death often sounds appealing. Over the years it has only gotten worse, the pain comes more often, and stronger each time. As everything grew dim, during a brief time towards the end of 2009, life started to look better, a small faint glimmer of hope appeared. That glimmer of hope lasted a short time, before fading away into a darkness that made the agony of the previous years look like bliss.
